Hyper Sensitive Syndrome

Office is a place where everyone every time with or without a reason have a status.

Sometimes I don’t understand what are these status actually for? Do we really want to be so crisp in our conversations when we know people and fellow colleagues for 2,3,4 or may be 10, 20 years?

Sometimes I am unsure if I should ping someone when they have the meeting Status on their chat. Are you disturbing them or have they put it and forgot that they need to remove them too. Or is it some personal errand they need to finish and it’s a good depiction of not receiving any pings.

Away status makes me think always, it must be a “Susu” break. How inhuman of me and guilty it makes me feel to ping someone when they are peeing. Virtual life is almost like Real Life in today’s world. It has a lot of visualization and feeling and thinking attached to it. Just that I switch from one mode to the other time to time. How would I feel, that I am peeing and someone is knocking the toilet door asking me questions or talking to me. Shouldn’t I give some space to them atleast for Susu

The worst is Do-Not-Disturb, its like “Dham karke Darwaza bandh kar do kisike muh ke upar… Maat aa yaar mere ghar… Maat kar mujhse baat… Shakal nehi dekhni hai mujhe teri…” Really?

I came just to say “Hi” only. Yes I am jobless in my mind, I have ample time with me “Main toh aivee ayee thi, Koi nehi chali jaati hoon”

Then when you walk back from the dham karke darwaza bandh karnewala friends door to your place it’s like making your eyes walk back from the RED BINDI Sign of STOP to the other part of your laptop screen I keep thinking what next can be done that keeps me Entertained.

I go by the Famous Quote from a Famous Bollywood Movie “Entertainment, Entertainment, Entertainment” Life is all about Entertainment. So always I want to be happy and entertained.

Sometimes the most amiable status “Available” which is supposedly I am available for chat comes as a Pandora’s Box. It may be I ping someone and the reply comes after one hour. May be that person has gone for lunch forgetting to put the status in away mode. Can I now like shout and say why did you reply after one hour. You are available for Chat. GRRR…. My TIGRESS TEETH is out now. I am going to eat you. May be they are in meeting and after 5 minutes they will say – Payal I am in a meeting. Or May be at times they are just chit chatting with their fellow REAL Colleague (I like to put it this way, the one colleague sitting adjacent to their Seat) that they forget to reply back. However the Nice Young Green Available gives me the least guilt to send a message to someone.

Sometimes I look at my list of people and see some are in

AVAILABLE MODE (AVAILABLE FOR WHAT? I DON’T KNOW)

AWAY MODE (WHY DO YOU WANT TO GO AWAY :( I HATE PEOPLE TO GO AWAY)

MEETING MODE (WHEN WILL YOU HAVE TIME TO TALK, I AM JUST SO FOND OF YOU ALWAYS)

DO NOT DISTURB MODE (OK DON’T FORCE ME TO MAKE YOU DISAPPEAR IN MY MIND – YOU ARE A LOVELY HUMAN)

PS: I NEVER give much importance to the OFFLINE MODE, Either I don’t care or I use Telepathy then ;)

Beauty of a day

She exclaimed “beauty of a day?”

Only Morning has its beauty, nothing else

Who says when the Scorching sun is up on my head it has any beauty

Only My Ray Ban Glares gives me beauty then

Who says the mid afternoon has any beauty with series of meetings and calls

The air conditioner gives me beauty then

Who says when I am done with my work there is any beauty left

There is only Radio Jockey that gives me beauty to my ear

Who says when the dark envelope of night eats the jungle it has any beauty?

Only Allah gives the beauty by saving us from Wild Animals

Beauty is present only during early mornings when we can hear the birds chirping with a meditative State of Mind, Cup of Tea with milk and Sugar well boiled

When the sun shines and the golden rays fall on my white night Gown and makes me look like Mother Mary that is the time I call it Beauty of the day

Little Miss Payal was sure about what she was saying and was very unsure about what the sparrow had to say

The Little Blue sparrow replied to her

Beauty is when you See the beauty

Think about the Scorching Sun up on your head and Clouds doing a Curtain Fall for it

Even if the clouds are not there and its just the Sun, don’t you see the different shades of yellow to orange to sometimes red rays with your RAY BAN that opens their arm wide enough to hug earth

Beauty is in your smile when the AC helps you to be cool and articulate yourself in your meetings, think rationally and be confident about what you have to deliver

Beauty is when you finish your work and take a stroll to the parking lot and drive your car out of the parking lot and see the Trees waiting for you to say Good Bye and Asks you to come back soon the next day or the next week or after your vacation. With the RJ don’t you hear them saying Adieu to you

Beauty is when the night eats the jungle and makes an elephant wait for food near your tent asking you to give some love and food to him. Doesn’t your Mother Mary Gown ignite your motherhood then?

Beauty is everywhere, everytime 

May be you don’t pay attention or may be you are so used to with the High Decibels that you don't hear or may be you have too much lipstick that you cant smell beauty

PS - Hear Beauty, Smell Beauty, Look for beauty

Ek Nimbu Do Mirchi

I had to write this today. Yes! Today. The Day I was trying to plan everything before I set myself for the first Road Trip in My Olive Green Maruti A Star (Second Hand – First hand owner is my DAD :| and I never bought it, just took it from him :|)

So what happened? I needed to come to work, finish a lot of things, that included my one on one meetings, team meetings, take printout of the route map, Check mails, reply to them, eat on time, meet colleagues and take suggestions how to go about for the Road Trip, Buy some snacks for the journey, make sure mom and dad are doing fine with their health, Etc.

Now I was traveling to work and near my office at Manyata Junction suddenly my car jolted. I felt like someone pushed it from behind suddenly. When I turned I saw this thin, skinny, medium height, dark guy with curly hair driving an Indica banged my car from behind. I was like “Gosh!” now what next. What do I need to do? How much is the damage? Multiple questions kept popping up. Physically I had to move out of the car and go and do a verbal thrash to him and had to be very strict. Basically I am very Laid Back Person. I hate to confront people. I hate to argue, I hate to fight. That is how I am, but living in a city that is not mine, I often have to shift from my comfort zone. There is an inbuilt feeling of sex equality and inequality that exists in me. I don’t know but I feel that females and males are sharing a huge hypocrite mindset in India. We brag females being pilots, soldiers, activists and celebrates Women’s Day but then when you are on an India Road and Fighting with a Cab Driver, Half of the people stare at you because you are female and not because you are a victim irrespective of Gender. May be we never got freedom within sex from the generations so there is always a sense of awe, hounding, pseudo-ism among us.

I got down went up to him and said, “Itna jaldi hai” he tried to argue back saying “Kya …” I didn’t let him complete, and I said “Kya, Kya, kaise thoka hai gari”. Immediately I went and took the picture of his number plate. Saw that my car got a Dent behind. By now people from buses, other private cabs and taxis started starring at me and at the cabbie. I said get down from the car. He didn’t listen to me. He was trying to start his car, I took of his car keys, in the meanwhile I hurt my finger and blood started Oozing. Later when I was narrating this to a friend of mine she said  “Tu hata payee ki?” she had that shock in her voice. “What to do, karna padta hai” a little me kept saying inside. Payal has only seen these things on road but never was a part of the scene, I was fighting with the Driver and I told him. “Hazaar rupaay do and go” at that time when I was formulating the sentence in my mind I kept thinking if he gives me thousand rupees how will he do “Guzara” with his family. He took out 10 rupees from his pocket and showed me. I was like really are you kidding or are you kidding. Angry Payal is very Angry but Payal wants to laugh out loud. She has this weirdness in her, at most tensed situations she just lets it go. Oh no Cars Honking, so I came back to my reality again. I keep coming back to reality and travel in my own time and space often. So I was wandering it’s an accident and he may have been rash but no driver takes out car on road to create accidents. Anyways. I got bored of the fighting within 2 mins. Some other cabs said “Madam side main jaake fight karo” I said “Shut up! Side se apna gari nikalo aur jao” Then I got bored again of fighting. I thought “Fayeda kya fight karke” Me the individual gets bored too fast with things. And I did let him go. I got into the car, I thought I was really not strict with him. He got the car beside mine and smiled and said thank you, and main “Gaal Gayee”, I kept telling myself, Payal you are so useless. You can’t even take Revenge. God Kya hoga tera?

I came to office and told my colleagues, friends and duniya jahan about the incident. They all gave their inputs. In a Whatsapp Group I shared with my Bong Friends and told them how I feel scared now to do the road trip that I have tomorrow.

So a friend said Ek Nimbu aur Do Mirchi le lo, Gadi main laganey ke liye nehi but muri (bhel) ke saath khane ke liye, Dusra bola nehi nehi Ek Nimbu and Do Mirchi le lo, cocktail banane ke liye. I just laughed reading their comments. Same Ek Nimbu and Do Mirchi – Kabhi kala jadu hatane ke liye use hota hai, kabhi bhel main daal ke chatpata snacks and gaap shaap ke liye aur kabhi Daru main mila ke high ho ke masti karne ke liye.

PS – Different people with different perspective. Maybe my readers will think I am not a strict person but let me be the lenient one. I hope the Cab driver who did hit my car feels better inside his heart. Take Care Curly hair Cabbie! Is this another Unlearn session? I don’t know :) But all I know is I am peaceful inside. 

PPS : My Close Friend Says - Bangalan Gari nehi Gaadi. Ri nehi Di. But I will keep it as RI ;)